I'm scared to start another relation with a man after what I had in the past. Not just because it was so hurtful before but also because I still in a shadow of my parents broken marriage. I mean what if I end up the same like their marriage? Like my mom who's left behind with two kids. And if it's happened, I wonder will I survive??
You see...it took a lot of courage when I started that relation. And when it finally end, I feel like there's no other chance for me. Although in some point I realize that it wasn't my fault. I mean.. I'm not the one who lied. And now.. I still try to convince myself that there's no guarantee that what happened to my parents will happen to me. I'm still try to convince that there's a man out there that really there for me and its just a matter of time before we finally meet.
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